Knew it wasn't easy
Even the simpliest of actions can cut me so deeply, cast doubts so boundless, evoke emotions so rending.
I've gone back into a state of passiveness once again, a sleeping beast stayed by a crumbling defense. Awakened by the slightest agitation, by the unintentional stray thought which plagues me so.
Always hiding behind the mask of this, never rearing the face which resides. Streching towards but never seeing the light again. Darkness envelops. Reality ensues around me, the piss filled cot bed awaits. The figurative ends and its time to sleep with a heart filled with questions and regrets. And of a glimmer of happiness which I always have. Cause that, makes it all worthwhile.
Even though I may find someone new and get married years down the road, I'd always look back. You'll always be the first, the greatest and the one I've seen most potential with. That'll never change. Nothing will. I wont. The fact that I'm still stuck in camp either.
I love this post ^^
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
I'M BACK!
woooo its been a year since I've last blogged! wow and my last post was emoing about the impending army days!
Anw, looking back at my emo posts, some of them seem really dumb. Of course thats the way everything i rant about seem to me on hindsight. Cause I'm frustrated over the same thing yet again. The same reason why this blog was created in the first place. The same reason it died. The same reason it was revived. And the same reason I've come back to seek solace in a nonchalent screen, which does not respond but provides such seething comfort that makes absolutely no sense. Oh save me omipotent textbox of words. Let my outpouring of emotions overwhelm my conciousness so that I may attain nirvana.
Right... uhm. Well leaving that schizo part behind, lets get back onto topic. Since I'm sure no one actually reads or follow this blog anymore, lets just bare all... uhh... things? Fail english ftw.
I love merry go rounds.. they constanly remind me that I'm stuck in a never ending cycle. It may seem I'm looking forward, but in reality all that I accomplish is being tugged along by my past.
YES another stupid riddle set by myself for myself to decifer! As always, I do stupid things like try to hide some emotions within lame seemingly cool self proclaimed emo-ness. But every riddle wants to be solved. So does mine. And to save myself the stupidity, lets just speak directly. A bold outpouring of stupid thoughts.
girl oh girl. Its been 2 years since I've met you. And after all this time, I'm still stuck to the same thing. I've let it go once, finally, after JC ended. Army seemingly meant the end of any romantic thoughts I haboured towards you. All was lost.
... I miss you :(
Anw, looking back at my emo posts, some of them seem really dumb. Of course thats the way everything i rant about seem to me on hindsight. Cause I'm frustrated over the same thing yet again. The same reason why this blog was created in the first place. The same reason it died. The same reason it was revived. And the same reason I've come back to seek solace in a nonchalent screen, which does not respond but provides such seething comfort that makes absolutely no sense. Oh save me omipotent textbox of words. Let my outpouring of emotions overwhelm my conciousness so that I may attain nirvana.
Right... uhm. Well leaving that schizo part behind, lets get back onto topic. Since I'm sure no one actually reads or follow this blog anymore, lets just bare all... uhh... things? Fail english ftw.
I love merry go rounds.. they constanly remind me that I'm stuck in a never ending cycle. It may seem I'm looking forward, but in reality all that I accomplish is being tugged along by my past.
YES another stupid riddle set by myself for myself to decifer! As always, I do stupid things like try to hide some emotions within lame seemingly cool self proclaimed emo-ness. But every riddle wants to be solved. So does mine. And to save myself the stupidity, lets just speak directly. A bold outpouring of stupid thoughts.
girl oh girl. Its been 2 years since I've met you. And after all this time, I'm still stuck to the same thing. I've let it go once, finally, after JC ended. Army seemingly meant the end of any romantic thoughts I haboured towards you. All was lost.
... I miss you :(
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