so tired
so very tired

"Is this messed up random string of events called life? Cause its not worth living for. My sole salvation, I hope you find me soon."

I dont know. Life isnt going to get better after As. I'd think its going to go downhill from there. Thats because I dont find mugging the worst thing in life. Its solitude. And whats worse then that? Well thats something I cant say. Cause its so beautiful and elusive. Its my salvation from this meaningless existence. And I know I've lost it. I'm filled with remorse and regret. So I'll just carry on with what I do best. Ignore it, and keep it within me. I just want it. It. Yes I want a fucking piece of it. Get It?

Btw dear, this is what i meant by emo stuff that doesnt contain any negative feelings about you! Seriously, no sarcasm whatsoever.. so yea.

man this feeling sucks

I cant differentiate reality from fiction, but im pretty sure it is happening again. Please dont treat me like nothing when I've been doing so much. I'm have mixed emotions now so please, just dispel them with one single word: Yes.

Thanks

in the darkness i seek solace in your image. (kktk 1:1)

in the light i search for your shadows (kktk 1:2)

in the nether your tenderness haunt me (kktk 1:3)

On a seperate topic, I cant believe I was so stupid. God I really know how to screw things up with you, to add doubt into the list of evils. i hate myself for being so blinded by jealously. I'll try to make sure it doesn't happen again. And i hate gapijgreaignfsklvhitapf.