so tired
so very tired

"Is this messed up random string of events called life? Cause its not worth living for. My sole salvation, I hope you find me soon."

I dont know. Life isnt going to get better after As. I'd think its going to go downhill from there. Thats because I dont find mugging the worst thing in life. Its solitude. And whats worse then that? Well thats something I cant say. Cause its so beautiful and elusive. Its my salvation from this meaningless existence. And I know I've lost it. I'm filled with remorse and regret. So I'll just carry on with what I do best. Ignore it, and keep it within me. I just want it. It. Yes I want a fucking piece of it. Get It?

Btw dear, this is what i meant by emo stuff that doesnt contain any negative feelings about you! Seriously, no sarcasm whatsoever.. so yea.

man this feeling sucks